In a Pickle

Sometimes I think I have something like a split self.

For example, there has always been a part of me that likes to give food away.

Peace Pilgrim would say this is my higher calling.

Then there is the other me who easily gets tired of doing what I am doing and want to do something new and different.

This happened on Sunday at the Free Farm Stand. We haven’t been able to get a lot of produce recently for all the people who come by wanting some,

including volunteers. Part of me kept saying I have to get more produce to serve all those coming looking for some fresh vegetables..

My other self said don’t worry about it, you decided long ago you weren’t going to be another food pantry, that you wanted to just give away food that you grew or neighbors grew. You wanted to inspire people with a lovely little farm stand that was free. Now what are you thinking, expanding again, thinking about getting food at the Food Bank? Maybe it is time to get out of show business and do something more real.
This craziness inside me continues and maybe there will be a follow up when I figure out what I am doing and get out of this pickle. Though I do so much enjoy all our wonderful guests and volunteers,it is what keeps me inspired and going. And I love all the fresh organic produce we score, but most of all I like the produce we grow and glean.